“Breaking the Silence: Selena Gomez Opens Up About Her Battle with Suicidal Thoughts and Multiple In-Patient Treatments”

Selena Gomez expressed to Rolling Stone that she believed the world would be a better place if she wasn’t in it, disclosing her suicidal thoughts.

Selena Gomez has opened up about a difficult period in her life in a new interview with Rolling Stone. The 30-year-old musician spoke candidly about dealing with suicidal thoughts amid her struggles with mental illness. While she revealed that she never attempted suicide, Gomez said, “I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there.” The “My Mind Me” singer also disclosed that she has been to four treatment centers, citing her early twenties as the time when things started to get really dark. “It would start with depression, then it would go into isolation,” she said. “Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed.” Though her friends would bring her food, Gomez said she didn’t want anyone to talk to her during those times. “Sometimes it was weeks I’d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath.”

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